Are You Carrying Pockets of Money Shame?
How does money flow in your business?
How do you treat money in your business?
Do you pay yourself a regular salary?
Do you keep regular records?
Are these easy questions to answer? Do they trigger anything within you?
After losing a bookkeeper that I’d had for more than four years and going through the process of setting up my business records and payroll with a new company, these kinds of questions led me to discover something that I wasn’t aware of: I was carrying a couple of hidden pockets of shame about my business finances.
What? How could this be? I thought that I had “dealt” with most of my money issues when I first allowed someone else to help me with my finances.
Yet, in the process of delving more deeply into my records and getting them even more organized, layers of shame revealed themselves. Intense worries and fears surfaced about what “they would think” about decisions I made years ago. I found myself waking up at night feeling anxious.
Money feels like such a private area. This topic touches us in very vulnerable places.
But, what is so interesting to me is that when I talk to clients, I talk about how money is simply another expression of the Divine. Money is simple “God in Action.” Money is love. I know these to be Truths with my whole entire being. How could this ‘jive’ with my pockets of shame?
As I connected into the Divine and asked this very question, here is what I heard:
These pockets of shame weren’t really about the money. They were about judgment of me. Judgments about how I’ve made decisions. Judgments about how I’ve chosen to create within my business, about the ‘rules’ that I’ve created for myself. These pockets of shame showed me the places where I haven’t completely and fully accepted my gifts and how I choose to live in my business and life.
Ah, what a gift.
As I’ve given myself even deeper permission to come into full acceptance of who I am, the conversations I’m having with my new financial company are going so smoothly. I feel a new opening around receiving even more of the Divine in the form of money.
Are you carrying any pockets of money shame? What do they highlight for you?
Jennifer Bloome is the Fertile Business Midwife. Jennifer helps people identify and heal the blocks that are keeping them from the prosperous, fertile, Soul-satisfying life and business they desire. Ready to transform? Visit JenniferBloome.com to set up your complimentary Belief Discovery Session to begin to identify and heal your personal blocks that are keeping you from your own prosperous life.