From Tragedy to Connection
Recently we experienced a tragedy in our community. A 16-year-old friend of my daughter chose to take her own life just after school finished for the summer.
My heart and soul continues to ache for her family, for my daughter, and for whatever the situation was that created this young woman’s complete despair.
When I allow myself to connect with Source, I know this experience is part of a much bigger vision and deeper meaning than is possible for me to know. And yet, that doesn’t ease the ache and pain of this moment.
As I allow myself to slip into the observer role, I can see I am trying to do everything possible to ease — or more honestly, cover up — the pain. Eating. Movie watching. Book reading. Anything to distract myself from the raw ache at the center of my core.
What were you taught about feeling emotion from the significant people in your life?
Feeling was not encouraged in my family. We were very head/mind oriented in my family; feelings were not supposed to be shared and if you felt bad, you were supposed to quickly find a different attitude.
But, why would you even want to feel pain? Why would you want to open yourself up to the depth of difficult emotions?
Your emotions are your connection to Source. Emotions are your connection to your vibration. Emotions are your connection to your body. Without these connections, you cannot co-create your life. You cannot engage in creating a soul-satisfying life.
When you don’t feel your emotions, you push them deep inside where they sit, vibrate, and continue to draw to you experiences that match the emotions. They are also huge energy drains, which draw vital life-force away from what you want to create.
Making the choice to lead a Soul-satisfying life and creating a business through your purpose isn’t always easy. However, it’s always rewarding in the end. Feeling your feelings is an absolute requisite to reach that rewarding end.
So for now, I sit and cry. I journal. I write. I feel everything. I remember to reach out and love my family. I have one more opportunity to stay in the flow. To consciously choose.
I am deeply grateful for such an amazing gift from this beautiful soul’s short journey. I am certain that everyone else whose life she touched would have another gift to share.
Love and blessings to you and your whole family, Laura.
Jennifer Bloome is the Fertile Business Midwife. Jennifer helps people identify and heal the blocks that are keeping them from the prosperous, fertile, Soul-satisfying life and business they desire. Ready to transform? Visit JenniferBloome.com to set up your complimentary Belief Discovery Session to begin to identify and heal your personal blocks that are keeping you from your own prosperous life.