Stop beating yourself up already!

You know how we self-development people are always talking about how we are on “upward spirals”, readdressing old issues from a new perspective or “onions”, finding new layers to “old” issues?

Well, I had a serious “onion moment” last week while receiving an akashic record reading from an amazing colleague..

Let me set this up.

I have been teaching my MORE class for the last three weeks and it’s been amazing and horrifying all at the same time. Amazing because the participants have been “all in”, really getting to the root of why they haven’t given themselves permission to have more. Horrifying because I’m recognizing where I am allowing more and beating the hell out of myself where I’m not. Shouldn’t I have all the “more” I want since I am teaching the process to have more?

Intellectually I know that there is no perfect, but the intensity of the shade I have been throwing on myself has been startling – so I asked my records about it. While I cannot remember the exact quote, in essence, what they said was:

“When are you going to stop beating yourself up for being human?”

The question stopped me in my tracks.

The big lesson for me out of my bankruptcy in 2009 was my realization that I had been asking to have a particular flow of clients to prove my worth, but not allowing the flow of clients until I knew my message was worthy of clients. Classic example of how to stop financial flow.

Every time I appear on a podcast or write an article about my background, I share how much I learned because of what that bankruptcy taught me, how I have finally separated my worth from my flow of money, and how I know this lesson now.

I thought I had this whole “worth” in relationship to money issue figured out. Then, BOOM, I start teaching MORE and I am completely humbled by an onion moment related to the flow of money and worth.

Fortunately, I have more tools and more divine support now than in the years preceding my bankruptcy.

As I leaned into the question, “When are you going to stop beating yourself up for being human,” I had a huge ah-ha.

Money created a huge awakening for me; money helped me remember who I am as a divine being. But I am a human being following a spiritual path.

I’m not following the spiritual path as Jesus or the Buddha (in their awakened, enlightened states).

I’m following the spiritual path as a human. I’m following the spiritual path on my continual journey of awakening.

This isn’t a one and done kind of a moment.

Awakening is a verb in motion. You’re always going to have human moments. You’re always going to have moments that make you want something different.

I teach in the MORE class that wanting isn’t selfish because wanting causes you to align and expand which in turn expands the universe.

And when I teach this to clients I become the space of neutrality and acceptance and love for those *very human* moments that created the want.

I had just forgotten to do that for myself. Big breath in, huge release out. I can now completely release the “horrified” feeling and bring in deep love for myself.

What kind of acceptance are you offering yourself when those human moments strike? When maybe the retirement account isn’t as big as you want? Or do you have a big bill that you have to deal with? Or you’re not able to pay as much toward something you want for your family as you want?

You absolutely cannot beat yourself up for those moments.

This is when you need your tools for awakening to lean on. Tools like soul language, tools like knowing your personal money languages. These tools help you in your human moments to continue your awakening and to allow your relationship with more (no matter whether it is time, money, love, health, etc, that you want more of) to flourish.

Ready to flourish – even in your very human moment? Let’s set up a time to talk.