Money and M&Ms

Have you ever been able to spot an “ah-ha” moment coming from a mile away and tried to run as hard as could in the opposite direction?

It makes me think of that ad with the chocolate M&M who is trying to run away from the checker at the register, but the conveyer belt is moving too fast so he loses the battle.  As she stuffs him into the grocery sack, his peanut counterpart in the next bag over exclaims while reviewing a piece a paper, “Hey, we’re on the guest list.”  Sighing, rolling his eyes, and with a dejected voice, the chocolate M&M says, “That’s not the guest list, that’s the menu.”  He knew it, tried to run from it, but it captured him anyway.

Interesting that I would pick a food analogy…but I digress.

I typically run towards those ah-ha moments: bring on the personal growth!  However, I recently ran into something so big that it knocked me flat.

Quick background:  One of the foundational concepts of manifesting is that you need to make the decision about what you want and then the resources will show up for you.  Many of us want to wait until conditions are ‘perfect’ and then act.  This leads to a lifetime of waiting.

When you make the decision fully and completely, the Universe will respond by giving you everything you need to manifest the situation.

I recently became aware that I haven’t truly made the decision to have a wildly successful and abundant business.  Perhaps that sounds odd coming from me, a Prosperity Alignment Healer. 

Even though I’ve had good success, I have been consciously ready to take my business to the next level for some time now and it hasn’t been happening for me.    As I delved into the question of why, that’s when it became apparent I haven’t fully made the decision to do whatever it takes to have this wildly successful and abundant business.  If I had, I would be more on my way.

Then the question became, why haven’t I made the decision?  And “what do I need to heal so that I can make the decision?”  As soon as I started asking that question, I had such fear come up I could hardly function for weeks.  I became the chocolate M&M running as fast as I could in the opposite direction.

When I literally couldn’t run anymore, when I finally got quiet, that’s when the ah-ha moment happened.  The biggest reason why I haven’t committed to doing whatever it takes to have a wildly successful business revealed itself.

My body. 

My first level of awareness about this issue showed me that my body is not currently healthy enough to handle the increased energy demands of a more successful business.  The weight I’m at doesn’t support me.  Plus I use food to mask difficult emotions.  If I truly decide to do whatever it takes to have a wildly successful and abundant business, I’m going to have to heal this issue.

When I deepened into this issue I realized the biggest component to this block and why it was causing such an intense fear reaction: over the years I have used food to stifle my voice.  I was too afraid of what “they” would think.  I was too afraid that “they” would leave if I was too honest..so I muffled my voice with food.  Just felt easier at the time.

The real truth is, I can’t fulfill my life purpose if I muffle my authentic voice.  That’s no longer okay with me.  I have a lot to share.  I have a lot to give.  Its time to have my voice.  Its time to heal my body.

So, I’m making the commitment today to begin the journey to healing my relationship with food.  To let my voice be heard.  To consciously step back into my body so that it can support me as I take my business to the next level, and the next, and the next.

I invite each of you along on the journey with me.  I will have MUCH more to share and say along the way.

Comments

  1. Thank you for the honest sharing Jennifer. I “get” your ah-ha. I remember it well. I have full faith in you and your work, blessings.

  2. Thank you for the honest sharing Jennifer. I “get” your ah-ha. I remember it well. I have full faith in you and your work, blessings.

  3. Jennifer,
    I completely see what you speak of in many women I know. It hurts to see them not stepping into their power because of their feelings about their bodies.

    You are wise to mention that you see your energy level is not what you would like, in order to move forward in your business and life. That is really the key, rather than a feeling of disrespect of the body alone. It is the energy that comes from within that will support us in manifesting what we dream of.

    Can’t wait to hear more of this journey and celebrate as a member of your Prosperity Alignment Healing community!

    Liz

  4. Jennifer,
    I completely see what you speak of in many women I know. It hurts to see them not stepping into their power because of their feelings about their bodies.

    You are wise to mention that you see your energy level is not what you would like, in order to move forward in your business and life. That is really the key, rather than a feeling of disrespect of the body alone. It is the energy that comes from within that will support us in manifesting what we dream of.

    Can’t wait to hear more of this journey and celebrate as a member of your Prosperity Alignment Healing community!

    Liz

  5. Cheryl, thank you for sharing your connection. I so appreciate hearing from others who have “been there”!

    Liz, you are my role model for body awareness and comfort and celebration. I love how you move through space and how you bring your energy completely and fully through your body.

    I am looking forward to partnering WITH my body and honoring it as the sacred container that it is.

    So happy you’re here as part of the community.

    Jennifer

  6. Cheryl, thank you for sharing your connection. I so appreciate hearing from others who have “been there”!

    Liz, you are my role model for body awareness and comfort and celebration. I love how you move through space and how you bring your energy completely and fully through your body.

    I am looking forward to partnering WITH my body and honoring it as the sacred container that it is.

    So happy you’re here as part of the community.

    Jennifer

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